What's my reason to be here? for now, i feel like i'm here to be there for others, cheer them up, be the one they can rant to, bounce ideas off, confide, get something off their chest, just being there to listen, help people relax, be a companion when they need one. generally, just being there when people needs someone.
So, what do you think you're here for?
One question,
What color/design would the wall have that would match a corrugated piece of metal that i would have graffitied with my name? hmmm...
*raises hands*
Zomg. This rekindled my dream of having one side of my wall beautifully graffiti-ed. and a wardrobe with sliding doors so that I can maximize the space. stupid swinging out doors. And oooh, sliding doors where ever possible. swinging doors waste space waste space waste space. and a spectacle/sunglasses stand for my specs and suns, a photo wall like the one my dad converted to, and zomg haven't think of the rest. shall leave it to my mom, who agreed to help me design my future home. and my sis can do the sketch on the com. hurr hurr. the good thing about having architects for parents and a sis studying interior design. :D and my love for IKEA! zomg. I'm sooo gonna assemble all my furniture myself.
was watching The Nanny, then a Celine Dion song came about.
Title: It's All Coming Back To Me Now
Artist: Celine Dion
There were nights when the wind was so cold
That my body froze in bed
If I just listened to it
Right outside the window
There were days when the sun was so cruel
That all the tears turned to dust
And I just knew my eyes were
Drying up forever
I finished crying in the instant that you left
And I can't remember where or when or how
And I banished every memory you and I had ever made (Never)
But when you touch me like this
And you hold me like that
I just have to admit
That it's all coming back to me
When I touch you like this
And I hold you like that
It's so hard to believe but
It's all coming back to me
(It's all coming back, it's all coming back to me now)
There were moments of gold
And there were flashes of light
There were things I'd never do again
But then they'd always seemed right
There were nights of endless pleasure
It was more than any laws allow
Baby Baby
If I kiss you like this
And if you whisper like that
It was lost long ago
But it's all coming back to me
If you want me like this
And if you need me like that
It was dead long ago
But it's all coming back to me
It's so hard to resist
And it's all coming back to me
I can barely recall
But it's all coming back to me now
But it's all coming back
But you were history with the slamming of the door
And I made myself so strong again somehow
And I never wasted any of my time on you since then
But if I touch you like this
And if you kiss me like that
It was so long ago
But it's all coming back to me
If you touch me like this
And if I kiss you like that
It was gone with the wind
But it's all coming back to me
(It's all coming back, it's all coming back to me now)
There were moments of gold
And there were flashes of light
There were things we'd never do again
But then they'd always seemed right
There were nights of endless pleasure
It was more than all your laws allow
Baby, Baby, Baby
When you touch me like this
And when you hold me like that
It was gone with the wind
But it's all coming back to me
When you see me like this
And when I see you like that
Then we see what we want to see
All coming back to me
The flesh and the fantasies
All coming back to me
I can barely recall
But it's all coming back to me now
If you forgive me all this
If I forgive you all that
We forgive and forget
And it's all coming back to me
(It's all coming back to me now)
And when you kiss me like this
(It's all coming back to me now)
And when i touch you like that
(It's all coming back to me now)
If you do it like this
(It's all coming back to me now)
And if we ...
Title: We Cry
Artist: The Script
Together we cry
Together we cry
Jenny was a poor girl, living in a rich world
Named her baby hope when she was just 14
She was hoping for a better word for this little girl
But the apple doesn't fall too far from the tree
When she gets that call, Hopes too far gone
Her baby's on the way, with nothing left inside
Together We Cry
What about the john play, could have gone the whole way
Lighting up the stage tryna get a deal
Now he's lighting up the wrong way, something for the pain
Man you wanna see this kid he was so fuckin' unreal
When he gets that call, he's too far-gone
Can't get it together to sing one song
And they won't hear tonight, the words of a lullaby
Together We Cry X 4
Mary's ambition, she wants to be a politician
She's been dreaming about it since she was a girl
She thought, that she'd be the one who could change the world
Always tryna pave the way for women in a man's world
But life happened, house, kids, 2 cars, husband hit's the jar,
Checks that don't go very far now
Now she ain't making changes, she keeps her mind on her wages
The only rattling cages are her own
Together We Cry X 4
The comes a time that every bird has to fly
At some point every rose has to die
It's hard to let your children go, leave home, where they go, who knows?
Gettin' drunk, gettin' stoned all alone
Teach a man to fish, feed a man for life
Show your kids the truth, and hope they never lie
Instead of reading in a letter that they've gone to something better
Bet your sorry now, I wont be coming home tonight
I'm sick of looking for those heroes in the sky
To teach us how to fly
Together we cry, we cry, we cry
Together We Cry
Time to time, thinking of what has happened through this year, what rash decisions I've made, what I've done, what I've said, what I didn't do, what I've allowed to happen to myself and others, I just feel like breaking down, retreating into myself, push everyone out, put up all the walls like I did in the past.
Thankfully there are people around me caring enough to break down these walls while they still can, pulling me out, even if they are unaware that they're doing this, saving me from myself.
Simple things like dragging me to go do work, attempting to drag me to RI to eat, sitting with me in LT or class even when I attempt to isolate myself by dumping my bag in front (to the point where we girls almost always sit at the front), buying a packet of mixed mini original and green tea kit-kats, giving me lovely hugs, and the list goes on.
Thank you for caring. It makes my day easier, brighter, lighter, sweeter.
Chinese oral tmr.
eeps.
no one reads this space anymore. hahaha.
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